its in!!!

since i shifted to my new division, i did up a really big pond, got the pump and filters.. spend a real deal of money on it.. but somehow, for the past 3-4 months NO MONEY TO BUY FISH!!!!


at last.. i bought 18 carps aka japanese koi to dump it inside.. 18 fishes.. but honestly the pond still looks really empty.. its so big that probably i'll need like 100 fishes to make it look like there are fishes in it.. lol.. but no worries.. i'll be working on it...


URH!!! have to spend more money..!! that pond ady took like more than 1k.. :(



anyway, had some work problems.. not really work problems but more like some ppl has some personal problems n grudges what he could not differentiate if it was work or whatever not.. so he had to make such a big issue about it...


this wonderful person brought the state union representative to have a discussion to settle the so called "problem" with the so called employers (manager + assistant managers). ended up more like a big quarrel and letters (surat) was flying everywhere as to pin each other down.. but at the end of the day, no solid decision was made but one this we all know... the guy who caused all the trouble is being framed as a problematic person and full of nonsense.. i'm not sure if he knows it.. but even his own union committee members realizes so..


to me, its not the happiest ending i would want but i'm satisfied.. but regardless of the matter, i'll be expecting more from him shortly.. so my new propagate mission is to break up his trust men and pull the to my side of the line..:) which should not be difficult.. afterall, their salary comes from my hand.. :)


i'm evil.. thou shall not mess with me.. :P




remember to drink more H2o k.. c",)

THE weekends

been a really crazy weekend for me.. not because of work or programs but because of emotional tension within me.


things between Be and me begin to be pretty complicated after she left for japan for about a month. i dont know.. but i guess long distance relationship just could not work out for us. so somehow she decided that we should go out own ways..


although i ady did expect that coming somehow or other i still felt my heart breaking into pieces after she said it. there was this sense of hopelessness and somewhat really heavy thing in my heart.. i cried... :(


but then i've been doing alot of thinking.. what was the reason of me being so sad to the extend of crying?.. was it because i had deep feelings for her or was it just the side effect of living in the estate? it really made me think.. how did this stoned heart joshua wong became so soft??.. i'm cold blooded if some of you might not know..


my evaluation is that its both together.. somehow i've got down to being serious about relationships and what caren always reminded me to do.. "cherish ur gf yea".. even now i can still picture her face in my tiny brains.. honestly, its not nice to have it in my head now coz it only reminds me of her and its pretty sad of what i thought would be a happy ending.


the estate also did play a factor. as i live alone i dont have much ppl to be attatched to so more than often its the closest ppl i'll be communicating with. since we've been together she's been the one who i communicate with the most although she's so far away.. i guess this caused a sudden change in communication level so i guess it'll be much lonlier without someone who's always there for u to talk to..


but anyhow, it best that we went our own ways.. coz of many many reasons..


thanks to my frens who went crazy after MU won the throphy n really did keep me from being emo and all.. also some of my old uni mates.. :) yeah... love u guys:) and my mom although she's pretty long winded but thanks.. tkae care and dont get H1N1 ok mom.. :P


its a tough time but dont worry ppl.. i'll be fine... just keep in mind that "I'M SINGLE AND AVAILABLE AGAIN!!" Weeeeeee.....



time to go!!!


remember to drink more H20 k..

office freak!!

lately i've been spending alot of time in the office.. not because i have alot of work but simply because i've found a spot that allows me to have good internet connection.. lol..


at times i'll go to the office like 9 or 10pm just to get online to do my mails n stuff.. but at least i dont pay my broadband bills to have sucky connection from now on..:)



remember to drink more H20 k.. c",)

hurray!!!

i lost 5kg in 2 weeks.. i guess diet's working kind of abit but then its like of a torture..!!


HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!!


remember to drink more H20 k.. c",)

have you ever had that feeling that life's just a pass time? some times its like you dont have a purpose and goal in life.. just lost your sense of directions..


if you do, i feel you...



YOU NEED GOD!!! lol...



anyway, been hell of a week and its finally friday.. will be doing back home tomorrow coz its mother's day:) love you mum..


basically tomorrow i'll go storm crabtree & evelyn mid valley branch to get stuff for my mum and aunty. its good coz i have a 30% discount as crabtree & evelyn is a subsidary compay of KLK.. i'm still wondering what should i get for my mum.. but i need to check out the store then decide..


day before yesterday, i decied to do something that i usually dont and not need to.. i escorted the lorry to the mill which was about 27-30km away on my bike!!!! the hot sun, the dust and everything that comes in riding a honda EX5... but one thing i realize is that this silly motorcycle could actually reach the top speed of 110km/hr... lol... wow... but then it was on a main road.. if i would hit the bike at 110km/hr in the field, i would hit a stone and fly about 30 meters away.. and probably die.. :P but then it was a hell of an experience.. maybe i'll try it another time or probably try riding back to rawang.. lol.. but the thing about EX5 is that u'll need to make stops and cant go on full rav the whole trip coz there's no radiator..


in the evening, went out with cheah for dinner.. he wanted to eat w0estern food.. so yeah.. we did.. but since i'm on the meat diet, i had to give all my so wonderful smelling chips and dilicious looking salad to cheah.. my lemon sauce chicken chop was horrible but i fried sotong which i would rate as excellent.. i'll be having fried sotong next time.. and it was only rm6.50:) yummy..


thursday night, i had a farewell dinner for my hervesters who will be going back to indon and also a treat for my other harvesters.. it did not cost much.. abi'mout 200 but i'm broke and i'm going to claim it from the company.. lol... all in all had a good chat with some harvesters..


basically my goal of work is to make my workers happy so they will be more willing to work hard for me.. especially the harvesters.. coz they r the main sourse of income for the estate..


i think its enough of words for one day... have a good day ppl..



remember to drink more H20 k.. c",)

when it comes, it comes BIG time

there's a saying about things that happens to comes according to season and the aura you possess..


basically it means that it comes in waves of good incidents and bad incidents.. the questions is how do we know if its a good time or bad time?


the answer, WE DONT KNOW!!!


somehow lately its been a bad time on a streak.. its like i've been awarded the worse luck prize for a week or something.. its been pretty bad.. from relationship to work to even to sports.. its really sucky when its like the whole world is crashing on you..


even now, how i frame my work process in work is being affected.. my job plans for my workers seems pretty much not very effective and somehow i've been missing out many things here and there.. its probably coz i cant really focus or something.. besides that i'm getting scolded because of other ppl fault and for me continuing what the previous person said was right..


the list of things i did wrong and got screwed for:

1. i decided to send one of my worker to hospital coz my senior assistant did not do it when he was suppose to. but it was the wrong choice coz today was pay day and i had to be back at the estate before noon to take the money from the security van. got messed up but was able to clear things.

2. my work in the morning was horrible.. basically it was because of many indonesian going back and also some changs my manager wanted.. so basically i screwed up and had some ppl without jobs and i was blur for awhile but finally able to clear things out.. sigh..

3. when i was awy at ipoh for training, my senior assistant was managing my estate.. so basically know what was happening. but then i was good enough to help him do up his contract work order and also do his home do his home division one too.. but guess what.. i just followed the data he gave me which i too tot was silly but i still did it without questioning him.. but the end results... i got the blame and my manager screwed me.. COZ OF HIM!!!! DAMN!!!

4. my staff did up the CRD (CheckRoll Distribution) when i was going to the hospital that did not let me check it befire sending it to my manager.. i instructed him to take note of few items which was sensitive but he forgot to.. n again manager called me and gave me one BIG screwing.. the worst part is that the thing i got scolded for was actually an instruction made by my senior assistant and a practice by him which somehow hide from my manager.. but then i doubt that he was hiding it but probably somehow got the manager's eyes off it.. but BECAUSE OF HIM I GOT SCREWED BIG TIME..!!! F*** HIM!!! so much so for senior position causing problems for us!!! haihz... too bad i cant totally cut off all my afiliations with him.. coz he's still y senior assistant.. damn him!!!


ok... i'm done with my anger management.. so now for the good stuff...

i got my confirmation letter after i got back from my course.. so basically i'm the few who got it and i'm glad to say.. hurry!!!! but the thing with this KLK (Kedekut Lagi Kedekut) is that they will only give u increment after 1 year of service.. not on confirmation.. i did bring up the issue to my general manager and regional director but i guess its the company policy so i'll just have to live with it until i finish with my bond then decide if this company is worth staying on.. but the regional director promised that they will consider a higher increment for those who confirmed earlier.. so yeah.. i'll be looking forward to it.. coz increment suppose to come in about 1 month plus.. :) but then again.. fingers cross coz its part of politics to keep ppl happy until the forgt about the issue.. lol...



remember to drink more H20 k.. c",)